~My 100th post~

Dear self-righteous prick,


PLEASE FUCK OFF & DIE.


✌.


Much love,
Witless speck of dust.



P/s: I hate you. :)

Here it comes...

"I WANNA BE GOOD FOR YOU GODDAMIT!!! AM I NOT ENOUGH? Am i NOT wife material? WAT THE EFF DUDE?!!"


*sigh*


Sorry for the Hurricane Katrina-ish emotional outburst. But like, i just can't tahan anymore y'know. -_-. I dun give a flying FUCK if you *points to the left* or YOU *points to the right* sees this and perasan I'm talking about you. KOrang semua sama je lah. Same bullshit, same drama, different cock. -_________-.


*Grr*


I wanna articulate this is an 'artsy-fartsy-fuck-me-lah-artsy-konon' kinda way. So u may ALSO have a crush on me (of the artsy kind. Pfft!)... but i can't. I wasn't wired to be berbunga.


You asked me once, wat was my GREATEST fear. I said, "1)If people realized that i had nuthing goin' on upstairs i.e. STUPID and 2)To be boring." But now... i think, one of my greatest fears... is to 'Not be enough for sumone'. I'm either TOO much or TOO little. Why can't i fucking swing and land sumwhere in the middle? It's like that STUPID flying-monkey-game that i used to play on ur Nintendo box Babe. The paragliding monkey one? Where i'm supposed to land the primate on the landing mark? Yea. That one! I feel like i can never land in the middle and score the 100 points.


Self-doubt is REALLY unattractive. Stopping this shit. Like, RITE NOW!


*Lifts head in defiance*

Was that you, making your peace with me?

A phone call does NOT constitute forgiveness.

Neither is my picking up the phone, my blessing.

So, if we DO meet 20 years down the line...I WILL pretend like we don't know each other.

Coz, truth be told... we DON'T.

:)

Good luck with America Babe.

Something's wrong. Something's VERY wrong...

*Grave face*

I don't know WHAT exactly's bothering me. But i dun feel at ease. Like, there's sumthing wrong. I came back from a meeting and all i feel is...empty. I'm having violent mood swings weyyyy and it's not fucking funny anymore! Btw...meeting was good. Client loved my copy direction. Yata yata yata. But, still...*SIGH*.

Maybe it's cuz my family hates me (And NO, I'm not being all drama about this). They went to sum sungai sumwhere for a BBQ and "forgot" to tell me. The WHOLE family ok! And no one bothered to invite me :'(. I only found out when i called my mum last Saturday to ask them out for dinner and they were all THERE already. FINE! If my family doesn't want me, then I. Don't. Want. Them!!! *Lifts chin up in determination* Am refusing to pick-up any of their calls. They should just consider themselves 2nd-daughter-less from now on.


Or maybe cuz I hate my housemate. He has a stick up his ass, I SWEAR! He gave me grief over water footmarks in the bathroom floor. It's the fucking bathroom la ok. People are bound to have footmarks on the fucking bathroom floor. Lain la kalau I'm a ghost and I float everywhere kan. Then, rest assured...you won't find footmarks anywhere. -_-. According to him, it's HIS house and he just wants it clean. DUDE. All i do is tip-toe around YOUR house and keep it clean (Up to the point i think twice before entering YOUR kitchen to cook me some eggs). GAAAAAAH! Thank GOD I'm moving out this weekend. I can't take ur OCD shit anymore. No one can la (10 bucks sez his gf is suffering in silence).

Or maybe it's my backache. It's starting to rear it's painful head again. Bitch needs to leave me alone. It's making me lose sleep (OR sleep in unnatural-not-of-this-Earth positions, just to ease the pain). Note to self: If my kids ever want to join gymnastics, just say "NO!", give them a tight slap and cartwheel off.


Or MAYBE...despite the fact that it's been half a year, and he's already married, and I'm dating people, AND we stopped talking...i STILL think of him. Okmovingon.

*Deep breaths*

God? If ur listening...I need me sum happiness. I know they don't sell the stuff in a bottle or a jar down here, but if u could just sprinkle sum on me from above...that would be GREAT, thanks! :D

-_-

So, it's like that huh?

Wow. You're amazing. The way you broke it to me. Just like THAT *snaps fingers*. And the best part of all? You broke my fucking heart, and you don't even care. So brilliant were you, that you even managed to pin it back to me. Like I'M the one whose getting married. Getting married to someone you've only known for 4 fucking months!

I applaud you. For your lack of feelings...for your ability not to care...and MOST of all...for making THE BIGGEST mistake of your life. ;D *clapclap*

So, con-fucking-gratulations on your impending doom, eh...marriage, i mean.

I'm happy for you.

You so smug, for what Mother Fuckers?!!

I really gotta get this out of my chest la.

What is up with all these supposed 'happily-takens'? What the fuck do you have to be all smug about huh? I find myself, for the first time in many MANY years truly single and i've just noticed how absurdly smug these MoFos are at their dating status. So, yeah...you have a (let me stress the 'A' part again) boyfriend that comes over on a regular basis but that's no reason to look down on anybody else that's dating around. We're dating around cuz we DON'T wanna settle la bodoh! We know we want (and deserve) better. Sucks to you if you're too damn scared to challenge urself and have low QC. If u think that the tub of lard u so adoringly call 'Sayang' is THE man for you, then by all means...marry the bugger. But then again, does he want to marry YOU? Sebab sampai sekarang pun, haprak takdak! If he wanted to, he wud've...A LOOOOOOONG time ago.

Was i ever this smug when i was engaged? Tak kan? Bluergh.

So, really la. Get off your high horse. There's no reason to be on it in the first place. Smug bitches.

Sekian, Terima Kasih.

"Hate is a strong word...

...but i really, really, REALLY don't like you".





And since we're on the subject. This one's for you too.





"You're just... a fuck,
I can't explain it 'cause I think you suck.
I'm take-
-in pride
in telling you to fuck off and die.

Goood niiiiiiiiight...."

The shitty truth...

DON'T.BE.THE.FAN!

Been getting it a lot lately. I dunno. Shit at work seems to go through me before it hits the responsible parties.

-_-

I have a headache. I'm in a foul mood. And i need sleep.

Screw it. I'm done for the day.