Here it comes...

"I WANNA BE GOOD FOR YOU GODDAMIT!!! AM I NOT ENOUGH? Am i NOT wife material? WAT THE EFF DUDE?!!"


*sigh*


Sorry for the Hurricane Katrina-ish emotional outburst. But like, i just can't tahan anymore y'know. -_-. I dun give a flying FUCK if you *points to the left* or YOU *points to the right* sees this and perasan I'm talking about you. KOrang semua sama je lah. Same bullshit, same drama, different cock. -_________-.


*Grr*


I wanna articulate this is an 'artsy-fartsy-fuck-me-lah-artsy-konon' kinda way. So u may ALSO have a crush on me (of the artsy kind. Pfft!)... but i can't. I wasn't wired to be berbunga.


You asked me once, wat was my GREATEST fear. I said, "1)If people realized that i had nuthing goin' on upstairs i.e. STUPID and 2)To be boring." But now... i think, one of my greatest fears... is to 'Not be enough for sumone'. I'm either TOO much or TOO little. Why can't i fucking swing and land sumwhere in the middle? It's like that STUPID flying-monkey-game that i used to play on ur Nintendo box Babe. The paragliding monkey one? Where i'm supposed to land the primate on the landing mark? Yea. That one! I feel like i can never land in the middle and score the 100 points.


Self-doubt is REALLY unattractive. Stopping this shit. Like, RITE NOW!


*Lifts head in defiance*

~RESERVED~

Just like the best table at a good restaurant...

Adriana is...




***

Sumone i recently met told me that I'm a very reserved person. (My close friends would OF COURSE beg to differ). But am i? REALLY? *muka tak percaya* I guess I've always guarded my thoughts and feelings rather carefully. I mean, it wouldn't be strange for you to hear bursts of random emotional farts online (Tweet tweet) but when asked, face to face, I'd rather not bare it all. I ESPECIALLY shut off when i feel I'm being mentally-probed.


I believe... getting to know someone, lies in the observing and noticing the little details that make them who they are. Half of the fun, is letting these endearing traits reveal itself. You don't want it pointed out to you. You want to become your very own Columbus and discover them yourself. Once discovered, it's slowly explored... and the experience itself is new... and exhilarating. And OMG did u notice how I just likened you to America? O_o. HAHAHAHAA. Ultimate compliment sial. ;)


Was watching 'War, Inc.' the other day and thought this line sums it all quite beautifully:

Did you know that the word "person" comes from the Latin word "persona", which means mask? So maybe being human means we invite spectators to ponder what lies behind. Each of us will be composed of a variety of masks, and if we can see behind the mask, we would get a burst of clarity. And if that flame was bright enough, that's when we fall in love.

Couldn't have said it better myself.

"Dramasonic"

Borrowed the term from sumone. ;)

Thought he'd get the honors of being part of this blogpost for coming up with such a brill word! Big ups Si Cekodok Busuk. WAZZZAAA! haha.

Anyhoo...

Been staying away from Barsonic(slash)TAG since HE left. It's been 8 months (or so) that i haven't set foot there. Last was my birthday in December of 2008.

***

"Time to create new memories", he said. "Are u up for it?", he continued.

I contemplated. Then nodded. "I am."

Why the fuck not?















***

Thank you for breaking me outta my OWN personal Dramasonic-Hell.

Does anyone else think this is fuck-ass-funny???

... Or am I the only one?

-_-


"Today, I got a CD stuck in my computer's disc drive. I got frustrated and yelled "SURRENDER" in my scariest villain voice, and my disc was immediately ejected." ~MLIA


HAHAHAHAHAA.


I WAS gonna tweet this, but it's waaaay longer than 140 characters. And i couldn't put it up in FB (coz my current status is another asinine MLIA story: "Today, while typing the word when, the letter E got stuck, so the word became "Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee". I was pleased my computer was enjoying itself.") so... it had to go in here. -_-. Gila epic.

And oh ya. For the uninitiated, MLIA is MyLifeIsAverage.com.

I DON'T recommend MLIA for the uncoordinated and those with poor multitasking skills. Coz you'll be reading, laughing AND peeing in your pants... all at the same time.

You have been warned.

;)

Best @ Tweet response EVER!

Well... at least *i* think so. ;)





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Made me smile.

:)

I'm in Miami Bitch!

I know you'll be singing this song THE MOMENT u land! ;)





Don't even be frontin' Babe. You KNOW ur gonna.

(Even if it's just in ur head.)

I can SO see u doing it. Hands in the ayer... lips all Nigga-Gangstah-Puckered...

XP

The conversation last nite was a little weird. Partly coz i was groggy (Hel-low! 3.30am?) and coz dialing from a US number from Saudi results in sum MAJOR voice delay. -_-.

But i appreciate the thought. ;D

Be happy in Miami Babe. STUDY HARD! A master's Degree is no joke. *Squints eyes, points index finger to screen* And DON'T drag it like u did with ur Bachelor's Degree pls. It was cute back then, not so much now with the wife in tow. ;p

FOCUSSSS THE MUCUSSSS!